I Stop Hating Myself

Picture of Siloma

Siloma

Happy soul ultra pro max!

Sometimes I feel so down
Worthless, a belt short of its buckle
Sometimes I feel like a cheap spray
Or perfume that smells like sweat

I get to my knees but things get tougher
I wail to God asking Him why
He doesn’t seem to come through
Though He says He is absolute and true

I curse and resent my life
I become self-piteous sailing through the strife
I think of suicide, rather than abide
To laws that I think get me into captivity
And a life getting harder

But again in my strolls
A dirty sad-eyed kid asks for a coin
As her mother holds her coughing boy
With an outstretched hand and a dirty bottle
Clenched between her teeth, sniffing
Probably to make her drowsy and numb
Of the chilly cold and incoming rain

I remember I have food to eat
Through acquired in struggle
I remember I have shelter
Though a scuffle with the landlord
Ensues every end month
I remember I have clothes to wear
Though worn out and old
I look at my life and my basic education
And the street family in fear and tension
And thank God for my life
I repent of how less I though of myself
How I ignored the blessings I had
And chose to focus on my falls
Rather than my strengths

Buy Me Coffee?
[wp_paypal button=”donate” name=”My product” button_image=”https://siloma.co.ke/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/paypal-cards.png”]
Share on your socials

Leave a Reply

Have you read my e-books?

You May Also Like

Wealth The Christian Way

Lord, sometimes I see wealthy people Adorned in pearls, gold and purple tunics I see them fat, with fat wallets and fat cars I see them walking in a rich

Love Your Enemies?

Sunday, 31st December 2017, 12.45pm Anger is what I feel when they jeer at me Resentment takes the best of me When they torture my soul and rip my heart

Sometimes Lord

Sunday, 31st December 2017, 12.32pm Sometimes Lord, my faith is shaken There’s too much theory about you Everyone has their perception of you And when they share, it conflicts with

Get Fascinating Articles in Your Inbox

Energize Your Inbox with Compelling Reads!